It’s been a week since my knee surgery. Reading has occupied my time during my… convalescence. Writing has not come easily as bodily discomfort frequently sidelines my thoughts. My world became smaller as I focused on healing, the people around me and the physical things that occupy the space in my house. Far from the distraction of the television (that is located on the first floor of the house and the stairs were too steep to manage in the beginning) and unable to spend much time on the laptop or cell phone (the bright screen causes nausea), I really have been able to read without feeling as though I need to produce something. Between reading children’s book during long cuddle sessions with the kids to reading I am a Truck by Michelle Winters to flipping through design and food magazines, I have had an opportunity to daydream. To genuinely feel excited about the future.
Of course, I’m making recovery from surgery sound comfortable and perhaps desirable (who doesn’t want more time to read for pure enjoyment?). There are lots of terrible and uncomfortable things that come with it as well. The first time I tried to get out of bed was one of the worst moments. The nausea and foggy head from pain medicine. Taking off the medical dressings and thinking “that is definitely not my leg” and then realizing “that is my leg!" and then, that sick-to-the-stomach feeling. Or the fact that night time can be a sleepless nightmare. As always though, there is something to learn and gratitude that comes.
Overall, I am grateful to have had the opportunity to get the repair done. To live in a country where it is possible for anyone to have this surgery. I’m thankful for the tremendous care and talent of my surgeon, the anesthesiologist, the nursing staff, orderlies, medical student and resident at the hospital. More so, I recognize that I wouldn’t have been able to do it without family and friends surrounding me with their support (kind of sounds like I just won an Oscar so I will stop now).
The future is bright, I think. In mine, I now see skiing, dancing, softball and just being silly with my kids. Read More